December… after Christmas, probably plenty of our future clients got engaged (congrats folks). It’s always happy to know that people are so crazy in love that they want to share the whole life together.
Marriage is crazy. It’s commitment, it’s full of hope and as long as it’s not bringing disappointments instead of happy everyday surprises I think it’s simply happy marriage. (I know what I’m saying I was married once).
When I was younger I was finding someone and I was sure we can MAKE it work out, that we can build a strong relationship from the scratch. I was sure that everyone has some kind of defects which I as a perfect partner should know, befriend and accept… I was right about one thing that if you want to change your partner it means that you’re not in love with HIM but with a blurry vision of the person he can become after your ‘repairs’. The same in reverse - I was giving them right to do not accept me fully leaving tiny space '‘for myself’’, for my quirkiness. This tiny space of me was never loved.
I don’t know why we’re letting ourselves stay in the relationship which excludes some parts of us. Maybe because when we give ourselves fully to someone it means that we belong to this person and we’re too selfish to trust so much to someone or we just want to protect our fragile emotions so we prefer to be buddies and pals in a relationship… not fully committed lovers.
Meeting Patrick was a blessing. Everything became clear on a love path. He’s my perfection. He’s making me laugh even when I’m miserably sad, he loves my clumsiness and supporting my decisions even if I’m changing them every 10 min.
I think in a true love you know your partner better than he/she knows himself/herself. You FEEL - the emotions, everything what’s hidden deep inside. True love is bringing out our real personality, peaceful mind, better us, fulfilment, everything what LOVE includes. Maybe you’re asking yourself WHY I’m writing all this? I don’t know. I just think there is too many couples willing to stay all life together but being… alone. I know people who are business partners but not lifetime partners. I see anxiety and toxic relationships when everyone is pulling into different direction and couples who are selfish and blaming each other.
I’m just asking myself a question today - was it love who connected this people or just fear of loneliness, or dreams about being in love… Where is their love? Was it ever there?
1 Corinthians 13 New International Version (NIV)
13 If I speak in the tongues[a] of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2 If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. 3 If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast,[b] but do not have love, I gain nothing.
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10 but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears. 11 When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. 12 For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
13 And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
At the end… I will just add some pictures which I can’t publish elsewhere…. Me and my soulmate.
